Today is the first day in my life I was ever late paying a bill. It was on my mind that I really needed to check when my electricity bill was due because I knew it was around this time of the month, but it has always been due around the 11th. Ugh, apparently it was due yesterday. I realized this right when I walked into work and there was a nagging feeling that I better check it on my phone. I'm glad I did because with my phone I was able to pay the bill right then....I hope they don't call the creditors:( I felt like I hadn't slept in to late today, but I guess it was later than it should have been because I was very tight with time this morning before work. When I got up I did my usual routine of making coffee and checking my email. Then I decided to call my twin sister to see if she was going to come visit me tomorrow and go Christmas shopping with me. I guess it ended up being a 45 minute conversation so by the time it was over it was 12:45pm....oops.
After we spoke I rushed around to get the one cleaning thing I wanted to get done today which was the downstairs toilet. I did end up cleaning that, putting a load of laundry in and then taking a shower. After the shower I folded the laundry from the day before and barely had enough time to eat lunch before I went to work. On my way into work I tried to call my boyfriend because he had called me when I was in the shower but he didn't answer. It was then, during the drive in, when I had a serious self conversation with myself about my OCD. I mean, I really started to get stressed about the fact that sometimes I think the reason I'm always so worked up and running late is because of the OCD. I really can't believe it could be all the obsessive compulsive disorders fault though. Although maybe a lot of it is. I can't really go to work when I work evenings until everything I had planned on doing is complete. This can be totally irrational when I have the entire next day off to do things. I guess my biggest fear is that I'm going to completely get lazy with myself....like if I let one thing go I'm going to let everything go. Well the negative consequence today was the fact that I never got to speak with my boyfriend on the phone. If I wasn't so busy with my rituals maybe I would have been able to answer when he called.
Tonight at work went by at a pretty slow pace and it was nearly impossible to get into anything really productive for some reason. Like usual, at about 10pm it started to get really busy and it was then that I felt really needed. I had to stay until around 11:30pm to finish with a last minute panicked phone call which I think ended pretty well. I am definitely looking forward to my day off tomorrow, but I do have to go into work for about an hour or so. There is a bit of a training session that I don't want to miss which, of course, happens to be on my day off....ugh. I figure I will just go in at 11am, come home and shower, then be ready to go shopping with my sister. Alright, until next time:)
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