I can't deny the fact that I really didn't do much at all today! When we woke up we said goodbye to my sister, her husband and my friend from work. I felt bad because we couldn't make breakfast for them all because I realized I didn't have eggs....oops. When everyone left my boyfriend made us cheesy bagel pizza while I cleaned the dishes that were left over from last night. The worst part was cleaning the stupid quesadilla maker! What a mess....they make machines like that so hard to get cleaned....I spent over half an hour cleaning it up. After we were done with that we decided to watch a movie and we went with "Raging Bull". We were looking at top movie lists and that was one on there which neither one of us had seen. It was pretty good and the titled was very aptly named.
Here's where the day gets really lazy....after the movie was over we started watching the Twilight Zone marathon and that pretty much summed up the rest of the day. We also ordered out from a local eatery for dinner because I really didn't feel like cooking or cleaning dishes. I'm not going to feel guilty about our day today though....we both work really hard and I think we are allowed a day off here and there. Some of these Twilight Zone episodes are really fascinating. There's a lot of talk about an upcoming snow storm which is supposed to start tonight. It's hard to gauge just how bad it's going to be but I was already getting a bit nervous about getting to work tomorrow. I mentioned it to one of my closest co-workers via text message and she said she was just telling her husband about how she would drive me in and home after work because we are working the same shift. I can't believe just how great of a friend she is to me....I feel like I don't do enough for her.
I've been thinking a lot about friendships lately because my best friend for years hasn't spoken to me in two months. I kept trying to get in touch with her and hearing nothing back so about a month ago I finally asked her exactly what was going on. She told me that she wasn't going to take a back seat to my dating life and that I haven't been available to her in months. I find this so bizarre because I've always gone out of my way to keep our friendship going. Plus the last six months I've done most of the organizing....I can't remember the last time she asked to hang out with me. One of the biggest problems is that she doesn't like hanging out with my boyfriend. She hates being the third wheel, even though I hardly think that's how we make her feel. It's very frustrating because sometimes, especially when I work evening week, I only have one day off. Therefore I started asking if she wanted to hang out with us on those nights, but she would always say no. It's definitely been upsetting me a lot lately. I have done a lot for her and I always feel like she never appreciated anything I did. The last thing I told her was that I would give her some space and I hoped she would eventually want me back in her life. Anyway, now that I haven't been around her much lately and I'm getting closer to some of my co-workers, it amazes me how great some friendships can be. It's making me realize how crappy she treated me a lot of the time and maybe this space is a good thing. With all that being said I still can't deny the fact that I truly miss her. Until next time.
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