I pretty much had about three hours of sleep last night. It was horrible because it was one of those nights where I was sitting up getting more and more stressed the longer the time was passing as I sat still awake. I know that I eventually fell asleep because I had a few dreams but it was definitely after 2pm. When I woke up I was so tired and certainly upset that I didn't have another day off before I had to go back to work. My second to oldest sister gave me a ride into work, which was nice, and it was meeting day. Where I was working I was due to go to the morning meeting and I arrived in plenty of time. Since it was my first day back it took me a while to get to where I was going to be all day with everyone asking me how I was doing and all. I ended up training a new hire, which in some ways was a nice break for me. However there were times I wished I had more sleep so I could have been a little more patient with him.
My twin sister picked me up from work and she got there right on time. When we got home I had a mini breakdown. I really wasn't feeling that great after doing a lot more walking around at work than I had anticipated today, so I frustrated when I got home. One of the first things my Mother decided to do was lecture me about going back to work so soon. I got really upset because I didn't know what she wanted me to do. At some point I was going to have to go back to work and the physician said I could go back when I was off prescription pain medications, which I am. I just don't think she can relate to the fact that you can't just take as much time off as you want in my field. Anyway, after my breakdown I asked my twin sister to help me put a load of laundry in and then I took a shower.
After my shower I had calmed down and apologized to my Mother for being so mean with her. After all she has been taking care of me for this whole week and I should just be grateful that I have her. I also apologized to my twin sister for being upset around her too. It was just a harsh realization today that I'm really going to need a while to heal up and I definitely have to take it easy. I think it's frustrating that I can't even do the most easy of household chores. I love staying on top of my laundry and now I can't even do a single load on my own. Hopefully, this will only go on for a few more weeks and when I finally heal I will be better than I have been in months. After all I did sign up for this and should have been completely aware that it would take a while for me to feel the results.
I didn't do a whole bunch of hand washing at work today, which was good. I didn't even clean my work station off because the new hire was already sitting down working by the time I got there. That bothered me a little bit but I just tried not to touch anything on the counter. Just getting through the day was my biggest concern. I think tonight I'm going to try to get to bed really early. Let's just hope I can sleep.
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