Once again this morning I woke up before my alarm and I think it was due to the same situation as yesterday, where I had to use the bathroom:( I wanted to get to work on time because I knew it was going to be a busy morning so I didn't sit in bed too long. As it turned out it was an incredibly busy morning and the odd thing was that it didn't go by as fast as you would expect, when it's busy. The afternoon got even busier and I found myself leaving a lot for the evening shift, which made me feel terrible. I think the days of leaving no problems for the next shift is over, since the hospital has expanded. Anyway, after work I went right home after a quick stop at the wine store.
I stopped at the wine store because I wanted to bring a bottle of wine to dinner at my Mother's house. When I got home I tried to speed things along so it wouldn't be that late when I got to dinner. I quickly gathered the garbage up and then hopped in the shower. Once I was done I got on the road. After many considerations I decided not to bring my dog with my to my Mother's house. I knew that my Mom would be upset but my dog hates car rides and I didn't think it was worth it for only a short visit. Anyway, I picked my fiancé up on the way up to my Mother's house and we arrived around 7pm. My Mom made a wonderful dinner of cheeseburgers, Cole slaw, and fried squash. She also started things out with grapes and cheese:) We had a wonderful visit and I'm very glad we went!
Actually, I have to be a little bit honest here, I wasn't looking forward to going up to my Mother's house at all today but it ended up being a lot of fun. It was really for selfish reasons such as not wanting to make the drive:( I feel very guilty that I was dreading the visit and even more guilty writing those feelings down. I got sad when we left, as I always do, and I think a lot of that has to do with nostalgia for the past. It makes me think about how much time it's been since I've actually lived there and where that time has gone. While I was living in the house time seemed to move so slowly and now, several years have gone by since I've lived there and time goes by so quickly. I couldn't help but think about all the times I would spend listening to the radio and talking with my sisters about the future. I was so lucky getting to spend so much time with them all as a child and it makes it harder now that I don't see them as often as I'd like. Another reason I get sad is because I have a sense of guilt that I'm leaving my Mother all by herself. Times like that makes me wish that my parents had been able to work things out, so at least they would have each other.
It was about 11:30pm when we got home and my fiancé went right to bed because he has to work tomorrow. Luckily, my day off is tomorrow so I didn't have to rush right to bed. I have a lot of things I want to do tomorrow and I'm going to try to not get too obsessive about housework. I'd like to actually read my book and exercise during the day. I am inevitably going to put a load of wash in, but besides that maybe I'll take a day off of cleaning. My hands looked better today than they have all week and I think it's because I'm consciously trying to minimize the hand washing. We'll see how long this lasts:) Okay, that's it for this entry!
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