Today I am back home and it feels so good:) Actually, the weekend turned out to be extremely fun. We ended up sleeping in quite a bit this morning and I just hope I can get to bed tonight. After all my public restroom usage last night I really wanted to take a shower this morning before we left, but decided to wait until we got back home. It felt amazing to wash off all of those city germs!
The biggest thing which upset me this weekend doesn't have anything to do with my OCD, it's my weight. Well, I guess that it does have something to do with my OCD, because my weight is always something I tend to obsess over. I really have been letting things go though....barely exercising for the past 3 months. I knew that I was putting some weight on but I stepped on a scale last night and the number was horrifying. I am so sick of not being able to fit right in my clothes and only wearing the things I think don't make me look fat. Tomorrow I promised myself to get back on the elliptical machine and workout. It's really not bad when I get in the groove, which is about 30 minutes, 3 times a week. I really think that I want to get a better machine too....that might help me. The machine I have now is very unstable and it's not a very smooth workout. So, like most things in my life, I tend to turn exercising into an obsessive chore and that makes it something I simply dread! I think that is why I haven't been doing it for months. Once I start to workout regularly I get so upset with myself when I skip a day. Then, that turns into me trying to avoid the guilt by just dropping exercising from my routine all together! I need just tell myself how important it is to be exercising and that every little bit helps, right?
Tomorrow I go back to work and of course I'm a little down about that. It was so nice spending the weekend with my boyfriend and his family. I am, however, looking forward to a week with not so much going on....after work of course! There are a lot of things I want to get taken care of around the house and I have a few articles which my boyfriend's Mother gave me to read. Anyway, that's enough of my rambling for tonight:)
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