I did sleep in today and it felt great, but then I started getting really anxious about all the things I had to do. My sister didn't get up that early either and by the time we were both ready to get our day started it was well afternoon. This week is a very unusually busy week for me because every day I have plans. Tomorrow I am having a sister dinner with my 3 sisters. We are very close and don't get to all four hang out that much together so we try to do a sister dinner as often as we can. With this approaching I wanted to get a lot of things done today, however I didn't do nearly enough. My sister and I grabbed lunch then went to Target together, which I was glad about because it's a lot better than having to go alone. After all that was said and done I wasn't leaving to get back home until 4:30pm and I didn't get home until almost 6pm....I guess I wasn't driving that aggressively because I can usually make the trip in an hour. When I got home I was so stressed because I only had about half an hour until my boyfriend was coming over to do laundry and take a shower. I also dropped the ball on dinner because I wasn't able to go to the store, so he had to. When he got here I was just finishing up my shower and he made dinner which made me feel really guilty, but I think he could tell I was stressed.
It's amazing how now that I am older it seems like I never have enough time to do anything and when I was little I had all the time in the world. I try to realize that I could be doing a lot more with my time if I didn't spend so much of it washing my hands. So it must be said that the biggest reason I had to get to Target today was because I was running low on my soap and I refuse to buy the refill containers at the regular food store because they are smaller and overpriced. Ugh, it gets really embarrassing to talk about how much soap I use in a day....so right now I am not going to go into exactly how much. My OCD project currently is to give myself limits on how much soap I use in a day. The main trick I am doing is filling up the soap container and then promising myself that I can't refill it until the next day.
It's almost painful writing this today because I really don't have any reason to be that stressed. It's almost insane to realize that I wasted a whole day being stressed because I was about to run out of soap and I had to do laundry. The laundry thing upset me so much because I am going away this weekend and thought I was running out of time to wash my clothes. This is all ridiculous because obviously I have enough clothes to get me through the weekend, I just can't stand being behind on the laundry. I hate being this way, because some people have so much more to deal with on a daily basis and they actually have real reasons to be upset. I hope that one day I can understand how silly I am being before I waste my whole life worrying about such insignificant details:(
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