Today I am writing this from my phone the first time because I am at my boyfriend's parents place. I was very anxious coming here because I always get anxious around parents. In my life I have always been nervous around bosses, teachers and parents....I guess I just lose my cool with authority figures. Where they live is also a little different than what I'm used to and that always makes for an adjustment also....by that I mean they live in a high rise apartment in New York City. I always grew up in a house and it is weird for me to imagine living in a apartment setting in such a big city.
I was very tired this morning at work. I had a hard time sleeping and I think it was because of how much I ate with my sisters. I don't like going to sleep feeling so full! Annoyingly enough I have been feeling very overweight lately and last night just sealed the deal. Ugh. Weight is another constant obsessive thought which never really leaves my mind. I am constantly struggling with the fact that I always feel like I could easily lose 20 pounds and still not look up to my own standards.
All in all I am proud of my actions today. I never felt the need to over wash and even though I had a bit of a hard time packing, I got through it. Packing is hard for me because I always worry I am forgetting something. I focused on reminding myself that there really wasn't anything I was packing that I couldn't live without. Enough for now:)
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