I didn't get up with my alarm this morning, in fact when I woke up it seems my alarm had been going off for ten minutes:) Apparently my dog had gotten up with the alarm because she was already downstairs barking at everything or anything walking by the house....she is the neighborhood watch, you know. Anyway, once I got out of bed I made myself some coffee and started my internet dentist searching. It seems there aren't that many dentists in my area so I decided to just stick with the one I have, although I was pretty annoyed when I called and couldn't get scheduled for an appointment until April! I spoke with a co-worker today to see who she sees in my area and I guess her dentist just retired....ugh.
I didn't feel like running any errands before work today because I knew I'd be running them all day tomorrow. The only thing I really wanted to get was a bottle of wine for after work, so I decided I'd just get ready for work a half an hour early and then run to the wine store before I had to go. I seriously left the house at 2:19pm, got my wine, and still got home before 2:30pm. It's really nice living so close to everything! Anyway, work tonight ended up not being too busy which was nice. Also, I got to work with a lot of people I don't usually get to work with, which was a welcome change of pace.
When I got home the only thing I wanted to do was watch a movie and have some wine, which is what I ended up doing. I watched the movie "Brothers", which I have really wanted to see but the opportunity has never presented itself. It was one of the "Free Movies on Demand" that the cable I pay for was showing. The best part of it was Tobey Maguire because his acting is so great. I think he's a very underrated actor and I wish he got more acclaim. I didn't like the ending because it leaves you in the dark, but I would still recommended it to anyone. The movie really focuses on the main characters post traumatic stress disorder (played by Tobey Maguire) and even though I've never been through ANYTHING as terrible as the character in the movie went through, having a disorder of my own made it easy to relate to.
It actually embarrasses me slightly making that comparison, because compared to anything like PTSD my everyday OCD seems so very silly. I think it's good to constantly remind myself how small my OCD is in the grand scheme of life because it makes me realize it's something I should be able to get over. I think the last few months, and certainly since I've started this blog, my OCD has greatly improved. Unfortunately, like right now, I still have days and times of the months when I just can't get my brain to stop over washing my hands or obsessing about certain things. I wish everyday that I could control my obsessive thoughts better but this is the hand I've been dealt and I do my best to suppress it. Alright, enough for tonight.
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