Day Thirty Six.

    Today was an absolutely terrible day in the war versus OCD. Work was very busy all morning because some of the systems were down so everything was extremely chaotic. I instantly felt very anxious and I knew it would be a difficult day for me. After work was over I managed to get home around 4:30pm after stopping to get some cash and stamps. I was still on the fence this morning, but made the decision to not go to my boyfriend's house when I got home because I knew it would be very late by the time I got done everything I had to do. One of the first things I did when I got home was to take my dog for a walk and she was so excited. It's frustrating because I took her for a nice walk, but she has been restless all night long. It's as if she can't settle down, I think it's because of all the deer in the neighborhood; they just get her so worked up. I would have thought that after all that walking she would be ready for some resting.
    So it's amazing how the weather has only been cold for about 3 days and my hands already look horrible. The usual winter cuts have appeared and they are swollen and very sore. It really is the cold weather and artificial heat which makes the hand washing so much worse on them. I am really going to have to start using hand cream more often again. It just seemed like all I was doing tonight was washing my hands. I was trying desperately to just get to a point where I could not be washing them at least for a few minutes. I did not get to that point until around 10pm when I started working on my FACGP. I was busy paying the bills, taking the trash, going through the mail, and giving my dog a hair cut in the back end area.
    So I can't stress enough that my scrap book pages, after working on them for over two hours tonight, look just like something I would have made in the fifth grade. They are so amateur and I really don't know how to make them any better. Last year my sisters and fellow Acorn Club members were Victoria Secret's Angels for Halloween and we hade to design our own wings. That project was really awesome and I was very proud of the way my wings came out. This project seems to be way more difficult for me. Sighs.
    So I spoke with my Mother tonight and she was in good spirits! Her 65th Birthday is tomorrow so as soon as I get up and get showered I am going to head on up to her house to spend the day with her. My boyfriend will be meeting me there after he gets out of work as well. I'm still uncertain about which of my sisters I will see because I will only be home for a day due to the fact that I work this weekend. I am a little nervous about what my Mom is going to say about my hands....I just know she's going to be disappointed that they look so bad. Alright, that's all I have for tonight!