It's the first Friday night in a really long time that I'm not with my boyfriend. I think since we met it's only happened maybe a total of four times. If you can believe it he had to work in the City last night then work all day today. I can't believe that he was able to get through today on no sleep at all. He called me earlier to tell me that he had to work all day today and that he probably wouldn't be coming over tonight. I was really upset at first but then realized that it was no use for him to come here when he was just going to have to go to sleep. He sent me a text around 9pm tonight and told me he was home and going to sleep. I'm not sure what time he will be here tomorrow and I'm trying not to harp on it at all....he'll get here when he gets here is what I've learned to keep telling myself over the past few months. When I found out right before I went to work today that I wouldn't be seeing my boyfriend tonight I think it upset my Mother and she made it seem like she thought she should stay. I tried to explain in the nicest way possible that I actually was looking forward to a night to myself. My oldest sister decided to go home with her this weekend because she has a lot to do around her house before she goes back to Florida, so she drove her home.
So I'm starting to sound like a broken record here but tonight was horribly busy at work. Actually, it was probably the slowest of all the evening shifts this week but I had something that I've never had to do before which consumed a lot of my night. When something new comes up I really have to put a lot of focus on it so I don't screw it up and a lot of things tend to get put on the back burner, which always has a negative consequence. I did everything I could to make sure that I wasn't making a mistake and I hope that all the effort I put forth was beneficial. I didn't get coffee or something to eat until about 9pm, but that was okay because I had a big breakfast and wasn't really that hungry until then anyway.
This morning my sister and I got up around 10am....I was still so tired, but forced myself out of bed so I could spend time with her, as well as my Mom. She took my dog for a nice walk around the neighborhood and I got myself together so we could grab some breakfast. We ended up going to this great coffee shop in the town where I live and I really indulged in a big old breakfast sandwich. It was really delicious:) It was called the "Vermonster"....haha. It was egg, bacon, and maple syrup on a cheddar biscuit. Pretty much it was the most fattening sandwich offered on the menu and I ate the whole thing. It was kind of nice though because it kept me full for almost 12 hours! At any rate after my sister left I spent time with my Mom, paid bills, and got rid of a lot of papers I really have been meaning to sort through but haven't had the time. Like I said yesterday, I try really hard to suppress my cleaning OCD when my Mom is around so I focused on the less obvious things I get obsessive about....like bills! When that was done I took a shower, folded laundry from the day before and it was time to go to work.
It's always hard to describe the feeling I have when I've had my Mother at my house for a few days and I come home to her not being here. My Mom is so hard to describe to anyone who hasn't met her. She has such a spirit about her and when she is not around the whole house feels so empty. My Mom has a booming personally, I mean she has more emotion and life in her than most people ever do. It's something that has taken me a long time to truly appreciate, I mean there are a lot of people out there that are completely emotionless. Anyway, sometimes it can be so hard to be around her because after a hard day at work the last thing you want to do is be full of emotion. However, we ended up having a good few days together and I'm glad I'll be seeing her next week for Thanksgiving as well. I'm actually looking the most forward to visiting her in January when I'm on vacation from work. It's those times that we get along the best because I don't feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and I can just relax when I'm around her, instead of always being stressed about work. Alright, that's it for tonight:)
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