I was grumpy today, I'm feeling much better now though! I woke up this morning and got a jump on calling my health insurance company to find out why I'm being over charged for my dental insurance. I was on hold for a seriously long amount of time which I usually don't mind, but really didn't have the patience for this morning. At least with my phone I can just put it on speaker and continue doing things at the same time. Anyway, they weren't able to fix the problem, apparently it's some glitch that happened this weekend. The guy said that it should be fixed within 48 hours, so he said to keep trying the website, I really hope I don't have to call again! So I guess another women in my department had a different issue with the website and has to call them as well. I told her it was a good thing she didn't call today because she would have really hated being on hold as long as I was. After that mess was over I had lunch then took the trash out which I should have done yesterday. Then it was shower time and I had to fold the laundry I had done yesterday.
It's amazing how fast this morning went because before I knew it I had to go to work. It was a wildly busy night at work. I did have a chance to grab a coffee around 7:30pm, but I was very distracted and felt like I was working too fast. In my life I feel like one of the worst feelings ever is the feeling of being rushed. I just hate it. I think it's because I'm such a perfectionist and it makes me feel so angry when people don't give me time to do things right. Let's face it, you can accomplish a lot of things in a day if you do them all haphazardly and rushed. However, to do them right it takes time and I am always a proponent of doing things right the first time. Ugh, I guess this all comes back to the fact I'm getting super anxious about my performance review at work. If you remember from the start of this blog I explained that it was my performance review which initially got me to start seeking therapy for my OCD. I have been at the same workplace for a while now but I still get anxious at review time. It's not a big surprise that it takes me longer than the average person to do most things at work. It's because when I do things they HAVE to be right or I can't move on. I like to think in my field it should be about quality over quantity, but that isn't necessary the case. Well, I always just hope that my supervisors can see the dedication, hard work, and care I put into every single day I'm at work when they do my assessment.
I only got to talk to my boyfriend for a little while today during his lunch, almost a whole five minutes! I was secretly hoping that maybe he would show up at my house tonight because yesterday he mentioned something about thinking today was my day off and coming over here, but he wasn't here when I got home. We are supposed to see each other tomorrow but I have a busy day before that will happen. Unfortunately I have a doctors appointment which I'm not looking forward to at all first:( Once I get done the appointment things should turn around because I am going to go skating and then it will be date time. Alright, that's all I have right now!
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